Its sunday and its been my first week of the bfl diet. I didnt go out on friday and saturday I had my cheat day. Yesterday I had a mimosa, a piece of a pancake, some vodka drinks, lots of chips and dip, and a piece of cake. The cake was delicious but I got so sick from the food. I am realizing that my body just cant handle too much of that type of food its so gross.

Im having a hard time realizing that I have to eat, my mind is so used to not wanting to eat that having to eat is making me a little batty. All i could think about is the calories in the food. Im also having a dilemma with eating lots of chicken, I was a vegetarian and last month was almost going back to it, so knowing the fact that ive been eating so much chicken kind of freaks me out sometimes. Part of me feels like im losing weight and another part still feels gross. I feel like im so tired of dealing with all this bullshit and these feelings. These feelings of feeling like i think my body is not good enough is hard.

This week will be better, I am going to get all my priorities in order. Im tired of feeling clueless.